I know I've never been a very active part of this community so I hope people don't mind me pouring my heart out a bit on here. I realise most of this post will be pathetic but if it brings me some peace then it will have served a purpose. My girlfriend of four years, broke up with me on Thursday. I've never dealt with a relationship ending before because she was my first girlfriend. In any event I was utterly convinced that it was never going to end. For the last four years we've been completely co-dependent. We even went to the same uni where we practically lived together, spent all our time together and did everything together. Even little things like walking to uni together and sitting in the library waiting for the other to get out of lectures. Well... you get the picture.
I met up with her yesterday and we talked and she told me everything. How she discovered she wasn't in love with me any more because she had developed feelings for some other guy. How we were living like an old married couple and it wasn't what she wanted any more. It was pretty brutal but bitter-sweet because seeing her felt so good. And now I have to decide if we can stay friends.
Though the most difficult thing is trying to motivate myself to do things like get out of bed etc. I just don't know what to do with myself.
I met up with her yesterday and we talked and she told me everything. How she discovered she wasn't in love with me any more because she had developed feelings for some other guy. How we were living like an old married couple and it wasn't what she wanted any more. It was pretty brutal but bitter-sweet because seeing her felt so good. And now I have to decide if we can stay friends.
Though the most difficult thing is trying to motivate myself to do things like get out of bed etc. I just don't know what to do with myself.
