Hi!
I don't usually write about my personal life here but I feel like spilling my guts to you guys and gals in an attempt to feel better. I've already consulted close friends and family but I thought I'd give you a chance to cheer me up.
Here goes:
Background
My girlfriend and I had a fight last Wednesday after the Chelsea game, it was basically because I felt like surfing the net instead of going to bed afterwards. Previously I had told myself that if we'd fight about something trivial again I would break it off.
So the next morning she packed her stuff and went home because she was still angry with me.
I called her in the afternoon and told her how I felt, which subsequently lead to the break up.
We've been together for about 10 months.
Reasons
I'm not gonna go in to any details but it was primarily because I felt that I didn't love her as much as she loved me and I felt guilty because of that. It was kinda the reason why the relationship was prolonged. I couldn't break up with her. She was basically ready to marry me and have kids and I wasn't. She took it quite hard.
So my question to you is how do I ease the pain?
I keep checking the phone for messages but there aren't any, she used to text me every minute it seemed. My apartment feels empty. Sure there's a sense of freedom but I also feel like I've made a mistake even though I know that it wouldn't last and I would have felt miserable if I continued to lie to her.
What now?
It's not that I'm totally depressed its just that I feel uneasy and I can't really focus on anything.
I don't usually write about my personal life here but I feel like spilling my guts to you guys and gals in an attempt to feel better. I've already consulted close friends and family but I thought I'd give you a chance to cheer me up.
Here goes:
Background
My girlfriend and I had a fight last Wednesday after the Chelsea game, it was basically because I felt like surfing the net instead of going to bed afterwards. Previously I had told myself that if we'd fight about something trivial again I would break it off.
So the next morning she packed her stuff and went home because she was still angry with me.
I called her in the afternoon and told her how I felt, which subsequently lead to the break up.
We've been together for about 10 months.
Reasons
I'm not gonna go in to any details but it was primarily because I felt that I didn't love her as much as she loved me and I felt guilty because of that. It was kinda the reason why the relationship was prolonged. I couldn't break up with her. She was basically ready to marry me and have kids and I wasn't. She took it quite hard.
So my question to you is how do I ease the pain?
I keep checking the phone for messages but there aren't any, she used to text me every minute it seemed. My apartment feels empty. Sure there's a sense of freedom but I also feel like I've made a mistake even though I know that it wouldn't last and I would have felt miserable if I continued to lie to her.
What now?
It's not that I'm totally depressed its just that I feel uneasy and I can't really focus on anything.
